I wish I were as interesting as other people.
They can write beautiful things easily.
All their feelings and emotions so simply but amazingly written.

i wrote a song the other night, it was fucking awesome.
but stupid, drunk me didnt save it properly so its gone.
i remember the chorus, but whatever.
the song was awesome, i was so proud.
but of course, i wasn't sober and wasn't thinking.

i didnt drink this weekend, and it was boring.
i think my life is begining to suck a little bit.

english is terrible, i hate all the projects. I'm terrible at projects.
But the kids at alti are good.
and quite a few that i didnt like have been step 4d.

but, i can feel that all the old kids feel the school sucks now.
there are so many kids here that dont need to be.
everyone has their story, but some can function normally in another school.
ugh.
and jessica is leaving in january. this sucks.
i just recently started talking to her, and shes awesome.
shes just so interesting. im jealous of her, but shes leaving.
i wish i had time to get to know her, and become one of her good friends.
but i guess that wont happen, shes leaving.
litterally packing up and going.
no money, no plan.
she started curling her hair alot lately, she says its because she wont be able to when shes on the road.

and i cant get my tattoo in airdrie, which hurts.
i guess i'll go to fuckin impact and get some shit.
this thing is for my dad, and what. "no, too young."
i dont think people understand the shit i've been through, and how long i've wanted a tattoo.
the reason i am what i am today is because he died, and i cant even get a tattoo to remember him? because im too young?
i think im so much older then they think.
age should be determined by your maturity.
and i think im rather mature, but i guess i could be wrong.

im getting alright at guitar though.
learning learning learning.
singing and playing at the same time is DIFFICULT.
but i guess i really am just a beginer.
but fuck, i love my guitar.
so pretty and a fucking awesome sound.

PS, i will say this again.
Nick is my boyfriend, not my property. i dont control him, he does what he wants to do.
hang out with him whenever.
dont blame me for not seeing him, i could care less who hes friends with.